I would have truly never thought that it would be easy to choose healthy. I have struggled with weight since getting out of high school and have been on may different diets. Ive tried somethings that worked (like weight watchers) and some which were really dumb (like skipping meals or eating so little that your head hurts). Weight watchers was really great if your scared of calories and want to stick to small numbers. Each food has a point value and you get so many points in a day pretty easy to follow. I'm finding I like the big numbers and feel when I see I can have say 1500 calorie apposed to 33 points makes me think i can have more. But I guess the opposite is that the food that is say a 100 calories equals only 1 point and some might find that more helpful, each to there own. I did drop 50 pounds on weight watchers and exercising but gained it all back plus some when I got pregnant with my first son. The weight I gained was all my fault as I totally went off eating healthy and started porking out on junk I thought made me feel better. I had awful morning, day and night sickness which strangely I only felt better when I ate. After my son was born I did lose 40 of the 100 pounds Id gained. I know totally crazy, 100 F-ing pounds. After that I didn't really try to lose weight, I have to be honest here. I was at 255 pounds and became pregnant with my second son I gained only 40 pounds and lost 20 pounds, so that means at this time i now weight 277. Two years after that I have my third son and gain 50 pounds and lose 20 after he is born. Which leaves me at 307 and the rest I just piled on till I weighed 327. I don't blame my weight gain on being pregnant, that weight gain was me not caring about myself it had nothing to do with my sons I would never ever say to my children you are the reason for my weight gain because that is just not true and I wouldn't be holding myself accountable for my weight. NEVER BLAME YOUR CHILDREN FOR THE WEIGHT YOU GAINED YOU PUT THAT FOOD IN YOUR MOUTH THAT WAS YOUR CHOICE NOT THEIRS. Wow where did that come from? I guess I feel you have to be accountable for what you do, or you wont change if you keep putting the blame on others.
So a year ago I said enough and I sought out help. I'm now 289 pounds and I think a little less now but I'm waiting till I see the doctor next which wont be till September. She has the most accurate scale and I want to weight on the same scale. Plus I don't want to be concentrating so much on the numbers kinda just want to go on the how I feel. I also like to be surprised and that way my doctor and I can share in the excitement. After 3 weeks of eating healthy Ive lost my urge to grab junk food and have been really enjoying the good stuff. Many of time we have stopped at MC Donald's and the kids and hubby have gotten a ice cream cone and I have said no thanks and it wasn't even an issue for me. I totally didn't miss out I came home and had peaches and fat free yogurt felt very satisfied. Now I just have to get the walking down pat and then it will be perfect. so long for now see ya tomorrow.
MY JOURNEY BACK TO A HEALTHIER ME!
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Oh Christy! So proud of you! I support you 100% Losing weight is a VERY hard thing to do; you have your good days and your bad ones. Sounds like you have a good strategy worked out. I know you will do this and get to where you are comfortable with your body...you sure sound comfortable with yourself; and that's the most important thing. Get your head in the right place and your body will follow!
Love ya! Connie :)
Thanks Connie I think getting your head in the right place is the hardest battle, but Im winning the battle so far and have no intension of losing this war. I will be seeing you shortly at Allens wedding and I look forward to it, see you soon. :)
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