Up and down day

Today was just nuts I was all over the place with my emotions. Woke up this morning went for a great walk with a great friend got home and just crashed. I thought I would have more energy after a walk but no I had less man I was dragging my feet. I also ate before going on my walk I had fat free yogurt with 1\2 a cup of plain cheerios so yummy.  We decided to go to the movies to see smurfs but it was so packed we decided to go to the museum where there was a Lego exhibit on, this was in poco. We all enjoyed that very much, on the way home we stopped in at my mother in laws and that was a nice visit to.  By the time we were heading home I started getting grumpy and I couldn't even stop it, I guess I didn't want to stop it.  So got home and made a list for Sunday shop, by now I'm not even interested in my Sunday shop. I usually love it but today it feels like a chore, so off I go with my list and sour grumpiness. I get all the fruit and veggies that I need and then hit Safeway.  I get all done and head home put it all away and I'm thinking frigging whoop dido time to put all grocery's away arrrrrr.  Right after that guess what time it is" Dinner time" oh great now I have to cook and then clean double arrrrrr. Not that it was hard to make just grumpy and over exaggerating today. Sooooo moody. I had a large pita with salsa and ground beef and green and red and yellow peppers and cheese. I also made a large pita with pizza sauce and salami and green, red, and yellow peppers and cheese. I didn't eat them all I ate half of each and it was so good I didn't go over calories but I could have stopped eating after about half of one. I need to stop when I'm full,  I am learning to recognize the signals and follow thru. So today was a great day just a tad grumpy oh well you cant be happy everyday. Time for a good sleep.

productive days

OUR YARD!!!

Yesterday was very productive, we cut the grass, moved the gazebo, put up the new pool (which we bought off craigslist brand new in the box, score) moved the blue garden bins. The back yard looks great and feels awesome. I did really well eating again today felt like something sweet grabbed a peach instead of rice crispy squares. High five for me!!  We had our homemade pizza which is a sooooooo good and filling.  I actually got the hubby to try red and green peppers and mushrooms on his pizza he said he loved it. Also I think I'm rubbing off on everyone here as my hubby had cantaloupe for desert instead of ice cream or other junk.  My youngest son said he was still hungry after dinner  I said I'm not getting anything else he said "Daddy can I have some vegetables?"  How can I say no to that?  I was down stairs so fast and started cutting up veg and fruit, that totally surprised me. I'm just so happy.  I have a part of a song running thru my head right now It goes FREE YOUR MIND AND THE REST WILL FOLLOW. OMG its so true!!

 Theses pictures were taken in the back of our house.

So the last 2 days we have been outside most of the time with the kids and they say these are the best 2 days of summer. Were just hanging out in our back yard getting stuff done but i guess we are all together hanging out.  This morning i colored a friends hair and I really enjoyed doing that it was nice to talk grown up and do some girly things. The boys were really good as well. I also gave Orea my half chow half lab a hair cut today he looks so cute all quaffed and pretty. He was also a good boy he didn't jump on my guest  and he actually came to me when i called him. Wow all my boys are listening to me today, watch all hell is going to break lose now that Ive said that.  I'm amazed at how much I can eat in a day as long as I choose healthy. So far today I had a kids ikea bowl of shreddies and skim milk, 2 whole wheat pita pizzas which had green and red peppers and mushrooms lite sprinkle of cheese and Parmesan of course had sauce on it as well So good. My goal is to only have one but I'm not quite there yet and that's okay I think next time I will have 1 1/2 instead of 2 whole wheat pitas. For a treat i did have a Popsicle that equaled 35 calories. I'm not going to deprive myself just moderate what I'm eating. Everything in moderation right?  For dinner I'm not sure what I feel like but I'm sure I will choose health. Hope you have all had a good one, talk to you soon.

so much easier

I would have truly never thought that it would be easy to choose healthy. I have struggled with weight since getting out of high school and have been on may different diets. Ive tried somethings that worked (like weight watchers) and some which were really dumb (like skipping meals or eating so little that your head hurts).  Weight watchers was really great if your scared of calories and want to stick to small numbers. Each food has a point value and you get so many points in a day pretty easy to follow.  I'm finding I like the big numbers and feel when I see I can have say 1500 calorie apposed to 33 points makes me think i can have more. But I guess the opposite is that the food that is say a 100 calories equals only 1 point and some might find that more helpful, each to there own.  I did drop 50 pounds on weight watchers and exercising but gained it all back plus some when I got pregnant with my first son.  The weight I gained was all my fault as I totally went off eating healthy and started porking out on junk I thought made me feel better. I had awful morning, day and night sickness which strangely I only felt better when I ate. After my son was born I did lose 40 of the 100 pounds Id gained. I know totally crazy, 100 F-ing pounds.  After that I didn't really try to lose weight, I have to be honest here.  I was at 255 pounds and became pregnant with my second son I gained only 40 pounds and lost 20 pounds, so that means at this time i now weight 277. Two years after that I have my third son and gain 50 pounds and lose 20 after he is born.  Which leaves me at 307 and the rest I just piled on till I weighed 327.  I don't blame my weight gain on being pregnant, that weight gain was me not caring about myself it had nothing to do with my sons I would never ever say to my children you are the reason for my weight gain because that is just not true and I wouldn't be holding myself accountable for my weight. NEVER BLAME YOUR CHILDREN FOR THE WEIGHT YOU GAINED YOU PUT THAT FOOD IN YOUR MOUTH THAT WAS YOUR CHOICE NOT THEIRS.  Wow where did that come from? I guess I feel you have to be accountable for what you do, or you wont change if you keep putting the blame on others.

 So a year ago I said enough and I sought out help. I'm now 289 pounds and I think a little less now but I'm waiting till I see the doctor next which wont be till September.  She has the most accurate scale and I want to weight on the same scale. Plus I don't want to be concentrating so much on the numbers kinda just want to go on the how I feel. I also like to be surprised and that way my doctor and I can share in the excitement. After 3 weeks of eating healthy Ive lost my urge to grab junk food and have been really enjoying the good stuff.  Many of time we have stopped at MC Donald's and the kids and hubby have gotten a ice cream cone and I have said no thanks and it wasn't even an issue for me. I totally didn't miss out I came home and had peaches and fat free yogurt felt very satisfied. Now I just have to get the walking down pat and then it will be perfect. so long for now see ya tomorrow.

Its sunday

Its Sunday!!!! I love Sundays, I went for on hour walk with a friend and it was great. I know I must have lost some calories because I had sweat running down my back, ewww but I think i will learn to love it.  then continued the day by doing my Sunday shop that I just love doing on my own. I get into a zone and its awesome. I shopped healthy and it feels great, I just realized I shopped the most on the outside of the store instead of the middle isles it is true what Ive read stay away from the middle of the store and shop on the outside, oh I also parked at the back of the parking lot a little extra walk where I can.  Its also very sunny and I think that my moods tend to go with the weather.  Sunny=happy so today, I'm very happy. So I had my fat free yogurt with plain cheerios before my walk and that sure helped give me energy.  After shopping I had a pita sandwich with turkey, green and red peppers, tomatoes, lettuce and fat free ranch dressing. Very filling and very yummy. I'm not sure what we are having for dinner but I'm sure it will be healthy and yummy.

Yesterday was kind of a Bust for me although I did eat well it was just a blah day.   It just was so hard to concentrate on any one thing but today I feel alive and alert. so very sorry for a not all there post.  But Im back and ready to blog. The sun and breeze....... wow just so perfect today. Hope you are all having a wonderful day too.

alrighty

Okay......today was a good day....not  much going on, some days are down calm kind of days.  I did really really good with eating well today, without even trying.  I think being fully stalked with veggies and fruit is a number #1 in my fight against Obesity.  My #2 is stopping myself from buying the bad stuff, just cant have it in the house.  number #3 is finding the strength to say no thank you. So far so good following thru. The last couple of days have been really  hazey and dizzy cant concentrate very well.  I just seem a bit off.  Luckily I'm going to a specialist soon and I can talk to him about it. Anyways will write a little more tomorrow.  night all

planning a head

Okay people Today was a great day all because I planned a head. So last night I knew we were going on a long road trip, so I packed us snacks that were healthy. So I cut up apples, oranges, cucumber and cheese, made 3 sandwiches for the kids and a snack bag with a mix of cereals. So the apples didn't go brown I squeezed a fresh lemon on them and mixed them so then were well coated. My kids love the lemon apples, also works with lime. I tell ya planning a head saved me from eating the junk.  I did have 2 snack wraps but they are pretty good for calories, I didn't order any fries and I said no to an ice cream cone. Whoop whoop!! On the way home we were both so tired for some strange reason and my hubby suggested we pick up chicken stripes and fries and then we both decided to go home and make dinner. Good for us, so happy we both choose better.  I made us some lemon slovaki chicken and pan roasted potato and peas, was so good mmmmm.  The strange things is although i did great and made good choice I kept thinking I could have done better.  I guess I have to find a happy balance I'm working hard to find it.
So we started our road trip at the car wash the van was getting to dirty who wants to travel around in a mess. We then started our road trip up to Kilby farm house  in Harrison mills. I really enjoyed the ride up, its really peaceful.  We finally get up there and take a look around and then all of a sudden giant mosquito's start biting I start welting and then running to my van. Ya not the day trip i had invisioned but it did make it exciting.  Our dear turkey Boa had passed on but they did have some other characters there, there was the roster who walked right by my feet and did his cockle doddle doo and 3 aflac ducks. we met these guys down a narrow path we did single file and then the ducks did the same and we passed them no problem. I filmed a couple ducks having a nice chat. As we headed home we stopped in at the mission museum, we had never been there before. Nice small place worth stopping in to take a look.  Its great to get away to a foreign place but I suggest looking in your own area so many places waiting to be explored.  Today was great! talk to you later gator.

This is where I want to be

Here is a  picture of where I would like to be in my weight loss. Grant you this was a photo of me from 1996, I know I wont actually look like this but I figure this was a pretty health weight for me.

Great news

Okay all I went to the Dr.Zentner and It was great to see her again and let her know that i have gotten back on track.  No more corn pops for me I'm not 8 years old anymore time for me to have grown up food, point taken.  So guess what?  Did I lose any weight? Ive broken the 290s I now weight 289 that four pounds I hope to never see again! By the way I feel GREAT, I have eaten on track and it doesn't feel like a lot of work, like it did in the beginning.

I think there are many reasons I have been holding on to this fat and I'm willing to stand up to those reasons and say no more.  I'm not ready to tell all of you those very personal reasons but maybe in time I will.  Time to let not only the fat go but all the hurt and disappointment as well. I'm am worth it,  I am slowly trying to be proud of myself . Life is truly to short to be held back buy anything.  Its time the outer package matched the inner one.  My new motto is If I don't like the way things are going  Change it, IT IS MY LIFE, PERIOD!  So I'm going to start walking everyday on my walking tapes and going for walks with friends.  I'm going to try to fit in other activities as well, I'm not going to go crazy with exercise because that tends to bring on my migraines and they wipe me out for days, SO SUCKS! These are the foods Ive had today 2 grilled chicken wraps, bowl of pineapple and fat free yogurt, salsa and fat free sour cream, whole wheat pita baked with very little marg and a sprinkle of Parmesan and 3 stone wheat crackers. The pita turns in to a crisp chip so good and low calories win win Id say.  All in All a great day.  This picture was not to long ago when I colored my hair teal green its now a washed out pinky color.

Sunny days keep coming please!!

Today was a awesome sunny day I love days like this!  Although I am a tad bit moody, poor kids I'm just kinda snappy today.  Today was a fabulous day for keeping on track I totally kicked butt.  I'm feeling full with out stuffing myself and that is a new feeling for me, as yesterday I lost it and ended up with a gut ache.  I started off with a little bit of salami, this was eaten as I headed out the door to walk to a  friend house. Got to my friends house had 2 cups of Joe and had some creamo in each, with the coffee I had some cucumber and a slice of an apple.  For lunch we had whole wheat grilled cheese and some fresh peaches mmmm so good.  I cut my friends hair which i really enjoyed doing and it turned out great. Walked home and took the kids outside to swim in the pool for a bit. We then headed in and I started to make dinner which I had 2 whole wheat pitas with lite marge toasted with green and red bell peppers with salsa and fat free sour cream. So good and feeling just right.  Tomorrow I go to see the specialist  I'm looking forward to our visit I haven't been in a while due to scheduling issues.  You know that song that goes "

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sending this message to myself as there is so many things you do to yourself, that you don't even notice you've done until you wake up one day and think Crap I can believe I let that happen. Wow.... I had a moment. I feel a real change coming on. I will post tomorrow and let you know how the Drs appt went. Cheers all

over stuffed

So full cant stand it......I over ate tonight...blah.  Today started off pretty good had 2 snack wraps and a coke zero. This I ate on the way up to the Army Museum in chilliwak, we just love this place. Kids had a great time looking and playing on some of the army vehicles. We then hustled home where I dropped everyone off and headed out for my weekly shop, which I'm really enjoying. Went to Kins Market for fresh veggies and fruit. Then stopped at Safeway and scored some awesome deals and air miles points. Headed home, made pizza went as fast as i could as my hubby had to head out to work. Sat down and ate wayyyyyy to much now i feel so stupid sick its not even funny. I feel like puking just to feel better but I hate to puke more than feeling stuffed. I think my stomach has been enjoying all the veg and fruit and today I had none and ate just crap. I didn't go over calories just had things that make me feel sick, I wont be having pizza for a while. To full to type anything have to go lie down ewwwww. see ya

Time for a veg run

You know when your running out of veg and fruit its time to go shopping because if you don't your in trouble, or at least I am. That's when I start picking and I usually go straight for the junk. So Sunday is veg and fruit day aka kins market/Safeway day I love this day!!!
Well today was another drab day went it comes to weather, blah!  So we stayed inside today and had a movie,  coloring, video game day....Hey they cant all be exciting.  Eating wise it was pretty good but not alot of variety that's why I'm looking forward to tomorrow. I am noticing that I'm getting fuller faster and am staying fuller longer I truly hope this sticks around.  I'm thinking i might also try pizza with out the cheese and see how that tastes, has anybody ever tried that? Talking about pizza today I was grating the cheese and wasn't paying attention and grated part of my pretty pink nail right into the cheese, lucky no blood, but it did hurt. I picked out the cheese with the pink flakes as pretty as it looked I'm sure it would taste awful. I also once again saved us money by suggesting we eat what we have and It was much healthier than the order out kind of food. Whole wheat pita pizzas they are the bomb half the calories and all the taste mmm. I'm completely stuffed and dont want another pizza for a while then again I have been eating them all week.LOL I think this week I'm going to try pita with whole grain rice and chicken, any other suggestions on good pita sandwiches I could try? I seem to be getting better at cooking as well everything turns out yummy, Ive probably jinxed it, knock on wood. goodnight all

movie party day

I know 2 blogs in one day what is going on? Just missed yesterday so adding in to today's blog. Well slept in a little longer than I wanted but that's okay we didn't miss much weather wise.  Feed the kids and myself my favorite breaky and got ready to go to the cheepy theaters we saw pirates of the Caribbean the newest one it was good. Well I did have some popcorn and it was great untell I got a few thousand kernels stuck in my teeth and gums that kinda ruined the experience.  We came home and got ready to go to a birthday party for a good friends son. We had a great time and I did very well stopping myself from eating things I know that if I have one I will have more.  I didn't give into temptation and to tell you the truth it seems to be getting easier to say no I don't need that food. It feels great to be in control, I know there will be days that  I'm not but today I was and high five for me.  Thanks to the Hostess with the mostest who offered once and didn't tempt me with another offer, that made me feel included and it helped me stick with it. All in all a fabulous day Cheers all!!!

Im late posting....

Hi guys, I'm late posting for yesterday. Last night i was just wiped out, the weather is sure a downer.  I have to admit I did.........AWESOME yesterday keeping on track and such.  I had for breaky my yummy corn pops and skim milk as for lunch I had large whole wheat pita with 1 teaspoon of marg and Parmesan, green and red peppers with hidden valley fat free ranch ( so good hard to believe its fat free) and a bowl of tomato rice soup.  This I had while..... the family had Chicken strips and fries from our local fish and chip place so, this was a huge step for me and i made it thru happy and full.  For dinner I had my new favourite pizza Whole wheat pita  with low fat mozzarella and green and red peppers and mushrooms.  I think I'm addicted to this new pizza but i have a feeling that its pretty good for me and a step in the right direction as for food choices.  We all watched a movies and had a treat I had some Maynard's Swedish berries, and a small handful of m@m's  which worked out to 200 calories so pretty please with my choice on that to. Oh here it comes TOOT TOOT there goes my horn, sorry guys just cant help it. he he he! No that's not the bottom horn, its my good job horn. By the end of the day i was so full and very satisfied with how the day turned out. Thanks for reading  talk to you soon!

A ho hum kind of day

Today I feel really drained, just plain tired.  I got up and feed the kids and I had a bowl of mini wheat's and skim milk I did have a small bowl which I was pleased with my choice to eat less. Lets face it in the past I always chose to eat more, not less. I cannot believe that we use to order pizza and I would make claim to 50% of the pizza, I would need to have exactly 50% nothing less.  So my hubby would say I'm going to have the last piece and I would be like that's not your piece you cant have it. How crazy is that and that thought was about all food. CRAZINESS!!!  I have to say that I have changed that and no longer do that. I don't need to eat the same amount as my man. So on the day went.....we went outside for a bit in the pool and on the trampoline.  Came in for lunch had a pita pizza which is a whole wheat pita with tomato sauce, cheese, green pepper, red pepper and mushrooms so TASTY!  We watched spy kids, had some air popped popcorn with a very little marg and some sea salt, had a good laugh and a very relaxing afternoon.  We all decided to have some outside time, played some more. Went back inside kids went up stairs and i decide what we were having for dinner.  I decided on a chicken slouvaki dinner,  cooked up the chicken with one table spoon of olive oil and water added slouvaki spice and squeezed 2 fresh lemons in to the pan soooooooo good.  The  Side dish was green beans with sea salt and garlic and chili spice, no oil or marg. That was also fabulous and was a hit with the hubby, who knew you didn't have to smoother every thing in oil or marg for it to taste good. I also cut up carrots and cucumber and severed it with fat free ranch dressing. There was nothing left of the meal everyone enjoyed, that makes me happy.  Although i feel drained I feel great, another day in my weight loss belt! Time for bed goodnight all

Just Realized.....

Hello All, I just realized That I have passed my first week Blogging and keeping on track. YESSSSSSSSS I DID IT, and it truly wasn't painful.  I have been really enjoying this and its so motivating. Today was a jam packed day i think since we were sick with the flu for the first couple weeks of the summer vacation we are trying to make up for it. So we went to a doctors appt for my middle son and then went to the New Westminister Royal Regiment to see there museum. Then we hustled home had lunch, which I was the one to say no to fast food and suggest we eat at home. Save money and keep on track, BONUS!!!  After eating my new favorite food of the week and still loving it by the way, we head out for a game of bowling. After that we hit afew places not so exciting and then ended the tour with the movie zookeeper which we really enjoyed. We returned home and the kids jumped in the pool splashed around for about 40mins and headed back inside for dinner, which again i said no way to ordering food and we cooked things we had at home. I'm hooked on those pitas and all the veggies, I mixed it up a bit....instead of raw I had sauteed veggies and I sauteed them in water no oil, no margarine I know crazy, but tasted awesome. I added alot of spices which makes all the difference people...all the difference... so good! EPICURE ROCKS and no I don't sell the stuff but I sure do eat it.  So the day was fabulous and I'm stuffed like a pig (I know I can say this saying because its the truth, unlike sweating like a pig which is a lie because pig don't sweat) On that note Cheers all

Wow What a day!!!

Whoop! Whoop!  Today was so awesome for eating, I am so excited to share my day.  So I started with my beloved corn pops and skim milk, I have to say I had a small bowl to boot. Toot toot yes that's me tooting my own horn.  I took my oldest son to get his eyes check after his eye surgery and guess what we got the best news ever, he had perfect 3-D vision which the doctor says he is over confident that he will never need another surgery!!!! That alone made my day!!  So we headed for Walmart and I let my oldest pick out what he wanted on of course we had to by the other boys the same so he picked water guns, all the boys were thrilled. We went home and I had a small whole wheat pita with tomato and cucumber with fat free ranch dressing with spices, still think this is the bomb mmmmmm.  We decided to visit Grandma and the boys brought there water guns and had a blast, I had a wonderful time too. We came home and had a snack which instead of pulling out quick crap I said this is what were having. I cut up some fresh local strawberries and fat free vanilla yogurt guess what.......I heard mmmm mom so good. That's also a big motivation to keep going I can feel this healthy thing spreading.  We then all went out side and the kids played in the pool and I watched them laugh and play. We then decided to have our homemade pizza and it was very yummy we are no longer ordering pizza we make our own. So much healthier, not oily and the toppings and spices just the way you like it. So good plain and simple :) I'm so satisfied with the way today turned out I can tell you over and over again. My middle son also had a big day he lost his second tooth and he was pleased as punch. So although yesterday was a downer today was fabulous and that rocks. Happy Happy Joy Joy time for bed, goodnight all.

Busted

I don't want to talk about it..........................but will because I need to.  Its been a day of giving into temptation and I have to say I am more than a little disappointed. I'm going to try to see the positive in this day of giving in so here it goes.  You have to have a bad day in order to know your good ones.

 Got up early this Sunday morning and went for a great walk with a friend but boy did I sweat . Did some grocery shopping stocked up the fridge, with good food, veggie and fruit.  I actually did pretty good eating veggies and fruit today that's a positive. I did on the other hand eat a bit of chocolate not a lot just a little and I think that was also a positive.  I usually go a little crazy over chocolate so having a little is a positive.  For lunch I had a whole wheat pita and veggies and sauce and seasoning. Dinner was really good ate at Mr. mikes which was my total down fall. Had a chicken burger and fries sooooo yummy. I'm not sure if that would be a good thing to have a treat dinner once a week.  I played in the pool with the kids and watched a movie with them as well so that part of the day went well. Now that I have written in my blog I feel today isn't nearly as bad as I thought it was.   So today is over and a fresh day starts tomorrow. night all

Sunny fabulous day

Today was a wonderful fabulous day!! I started off with a bowl of corn pops and skim milk I really enjoyed that. Then I had a great friend come over this morning where I did her hair, we put streaks in and gave it a cut looked awesome! We had a great girly day, we also painted finger nails and toe nails. We watched the boys swim there hearts out and fight like crazy. Just the way you want your sons to behave when you have company over. We all had some lunch which I have to say was five star material, Kraft dinner mac and cheese with cut up veggies. I do have to say I did only have one helping of mac and cheese and I had some veggies, the veggies are so good and crisp. Daddy can home and we watched a movie together we had some air popped popcorn and a few really good laughs.  I made some pita pizzas  the kids loved them and they were also really low in cals compared to regular pizza mmm mmm mmm so good.  After eating we all went back outside and the kids and I jumped in the pool and we all played freeze tag, I had so much fun with them. I love summer!! Came back in and made the kids ice cream cones and I dint have one, whoop whoop! After ice cream put kids to bed and had a snack of red and green peppers with tomatoes and fat free ranch dressing with epicure Louisiana hot spice and a few other spices it was very good. Spices make everything taste so much better. Just a wonderful day. Lets keep going see you tomorrow.

Did you know?

Hello people! Today has been a pretty good day keeping on track. Ive been busy actually cooking meals (I'm usually a quick and easy sort of gal...... hey you know what I mean) made a very healthy brunch for me and the kids. We had sandwiches and veggies and dip. I was so amazed that the veggie went so fast and it wasn't mostly me eating them. I had a whole wheat pit with turkey and tomatoes with chipotle sause, the same as yesterday, but sooo good had to have it again. Had some veggies and low fat ranch for dip. Wow I was looking at the calories for just the chipotle dip and 3 tablespoons its 300 calories now I know why I'm addicted to the shit. It was a great brunch! So on the day went took the kids outside most of the day in the backyard they had a blast and I enjoyed myself too.  I made us some air popped popcorn with 2 tablespoons of becel and Epicures chili garlic sea salt OMG soooo good didn't need anything else on it.  Its the best stuff I have ever bought. I swear I would never go back to anything other than Epicure seasoning. I know...... they should pay me for this advertising. LOL For Dinner had another whole wheat pita but this time I sauteed onions, mushrooms, green pepper, red pepper, carrots and celery in olive oil and chipotle sauce. Oh i enjoyed that a little to much, mmm mmm mmm. Did I tell you i have a serious love for food. For dessert I had fat free yogurt from yoplait source exotik selection also very good but even better is the calories are very low. Since I'm listing of products the pitas are from safeway and there called PDF signature authentic thin style so good there pretty thin but just fold them in half the calories are low in these as well.  Oh another thing I hope these stupid zits go away soon I'm frigin 33 years old I think Ive had them long enough. I'm hoping that all this eating good and drinking water will help that go away. That is my last thought of the day, Cheers all!!

mind body and soul

Wow fruit salad is awesome!! I havent had fruit salad in years, boy ive been missing out. My fruit salad had strawberries, banana, grapes and apple all covered in fresh squeezed lemon juice an 1/2 table spoon of sugar. soooooo goooooood :) That was for breakfast, can you believe it, usually I have tons of breads and cereal (which I love) so having fruit for breaky is way out there for me.  Maybe its a mental thing but I feel like I  have more energy.  Soooooo Ive been doing really good today, but have to admit I have been fighting the urge to shove crap in my mouth all day. You guys reading my blogs are always in the back of my mind saying you can do it Christy, you can do it!   My gutt is grumbling thanks for nothing but my soul is praising Thanks, Thanks,Thanks!!! You know the saying mind, body and soul well I tell you, the mind has had enough of this and is saying body and soul get your act together before you drive me crazy.  For lunch today I have to say all three mind, body and soul were happy, I had a whole wheat pits with lean turkey and a chopped up tomato with this awesome chipotle sauce from costco, sprinkled with epicure cracked pepper.  Soooo good it still excites me he, he, he.  We are going to make our own home made pizza tonight and Im going to try to keep it together as home made pizza is also very exciting for me. Alot of food is very exciting for me wow do you think thats a problem? Okay all the little people are in bed confession time I think I did fairly well with eating the pizza I only ate one more than I was intending on eating so all together I had 3 peices and a banana. I went over my budget of calories in a day by 120 calories but I know that today I kicked butt compared to my previous days so Im giving myself a pat on the back and Im going to keep going.  Had a great day hope you guys did too. Cheers all!!!

The beginning

Well here I am on July 5 2011 at 12:32 am,  starting a blog.  I am hoping that this will be the motivation I need to get me to become the person I know I can be instead of settling with the person I have become.  I'm sure there have been tons of blogs about losing weight and I'm just another one but I'm hoping I can also be that story of change. You know what I mean. Heres a little info about me: my name is Christy Im 33 years old , Ive  have a great man ( who ive been with for over 15 years) and am a mother of  3 wonderful boys.

I have put up a picture of myself at my highest weight and yes I am gong to tell you what that weight was........327lbs.  At that weight I was so uncomfortable in my body I couldn't stand it. Holy Crap did I just write that!!!! If I'm going to do this blog I'm going to be completely honest with not only you but also with myself.  Wow how did I get here shouldn't I have noticed how much weight I have gained over the years? Why didn't I start earlier? Well what can you do, cant change what has happened only what your going to do now. Its not a number I'm proud of but It is just a number and I'm going to change that.  I have lost 40lbs over the last year but have lost motivation hense the blog.

I have been going to an Obesity specialist over the past year and that is why I have dropped 40lbs. She has been great but i think that I need more support that a once a month visit.  I now weigh 293lbs and notice a difference in the way I feel.  Its so awesome to drive and not have your belly do the steering  and its also a relief to be able to sit in a booth when I go to a restaurant.  I am far from done but lets get started.

I need a plan

I need a plan, plain and simple.  I have been keeping track of what Ive been eating the last 2 days, whoa Eye opener, I may have not eaten alot of food but the calories and fat in those foods Crazy!!!  So today  I started off with a large whole wheat pita with soynut butter and a banana, not bad. Went to the movies with the Hubby and kids, had movie popcorn mmmm good but not good.  Got home and had breakfast for dinner, pancakes, scrambled eggs, hashbrowns (omg do you know how many calories in these), and a few pieces of bacon.  I didnt go crazy eating everything in site but all those foods are crazy calories. Im not going to calorie crazy/fat but it is good to be aware of what is going in the pie hole. I have had a wonderful day no one barfed whoop whoop, we went to the movies to see Lightning McQueen 2 it was really good and then came home and spent time in the pool all together, the whole family in the pool having fun laughing, just a great time.  Im so happy that I got over myself and bought a bathing suit, which i havent owned a bathing suit in over 10 years no joking!!! I missed out on so much with my boys, going swimming with them in a public pool all because I was worried about judgment from strangers. I should have been more worried about how that effected my boys, how they thought of there mother.  If I didnt have confidence in myself how could my boys have confidence in there mother. I have started to change that out look and think that the boys see that as well. What I say to myself  when im doubting myself, is " I am who I am" it makes me hold my head high and makes me feel like if you dont like me okay then.  You cant change what someone else thinks and does,  but you can change what you do and think and  to me that is enpowering. Im sure you will notice that my blog is all over the place but thats just the way I am and Im happy with that. Cheers guys Ill be back tomorrow.

Angel goodness of summer, N0!!

Okay all I said no to a Slurpee, I know it seems like whoop big deal, but for me it is. Its a hot sunny day and I said NO THANK YOU to this icy angel of a drink!!!  I am in control and guess what?? Ive said No and I'm going to shop for fruit and veggie, Crazy I know.  This Blogging thing might actually work :) Cheers all its a great day!!! Also made a good choice today I was thinking" I feel like something sweet I think Ill grab a few rice crispy squares", then I stopped turned around and cleaned and cut up some strawberries. Its been an awesome choice day.