I need a plan

I need a plan, plain and simple.  I have been keeping track of what Ive been eating the last 2 days, whoa Eye opener, I may have not eaten alot of food but the calories and fat in those foods Crazy!!!  So today  I started off with a large whole wheat pita with soynut butter and a banana, not bad. Went to the movies with the Hubby and kids, had movie popcorn mmmm good but not good.  Got home and had breakfast for dinner, pancakes, scrambled eggs, hashbrowns (omg do you know how many calories in these), and a few pieces of bacon.  I didnt go crazy eating everything in site but all those foods are crazy calories. Im not going to calorie crazy/fat but it is good to be aware of what is going in the pie hole. I have had a wonderful day no one barfed whoop whoop, we went to the movies to see Lightning McQueen 2 it was really good and then came home and spent time in the pool all together, the whole family in the pool having fun laughing, just a great time.  Im so happy that I got over myself and bought a bathing suit, which i havent owned a bathing suit in over 10 years no joking!!! I missed out on so much with my boys, going swimming with them in a public pool all because I was worried about judgment from strangers. I should have been more worried about how that effected my boys, how they thought of there mother.  If I didnt have confidence in myself how could my boys have confidence in there mother. I have started to change that out look and think that the boys see that as well. What I say to myself  when im doubting myself, is " I am who I am" it makes me hold my head high and makes me feel like if you dont like me okay then.  You cant change what someone else thinks and does,  but you can change what you do and think and  to me that is enpowering. Im sure you will notice that my blog is all over the place but thats just the way I am and Im happy with that. Cheers guys Ill be back tomorrow.